It frustrated the hell out of me.
I've been practicing yoga for about ten years, on and off. But let's face it: I'm not exactly the most diligent student. I practice best in a community, and when I don't go to class regularly, I don't practice at home. I am what I might call a yoga slacker.
I know that handstands aren't integral to a yoga practice. Which made it easy for me to make lots of excuses. "This isn't yoga." " They're just showing off." "They have lots of time to practice because they're stay at home moms who have nothing else to do" (this last comment based on conversations I used to overhear at the studio).
None of this changed the fact that when I went home, I felt bad about myself for not being able to do what clearly came so easily to everyone else.
It took me a year of off-and-on practice, from forearm stand to here, but with better attention to the role that my core plays in the pose, and how my feet lift just as the crown of my head lifts in tadasana, and with less fear of falling, I can now do this:
It's worth noting that I still need support to get up there (i.e., it's helpful to have a wall, just in case). I can't stay this way for very long. But it's been nice to discover that I'm capable of doing it after all. It just took a little readjustment of perspective.
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